This weekend was moody.

Friday: I was excited to go home. Arrived just before 2pm. Got to catch up with the family for a bit and finish my math homework. Went to visit Sarah and her family. Got dinner at Farmer Boys and had some good conversation with mom and dad about business. Had Sarah pick me up from dinner and we went to the day creek spot in Rancho for a bit. Then, we went off to Hollywood. Visited Miley Cyrus’ house and near it we saw Demi Lovato’s house and it smelled like some DANK weed, which was hilarious. We took of to find Miley at some club right off Hollywood Blvd. She eventually came out and was a total jerk to the 5 people that were standing around trying to get a picture. Sarah was VERY upset to say the least and cried her eyes out. So, we headed home and Sarah let me drive after me convincing her that she was emotionally distraught. I went pretty fast, but it was really fun to drive that Civic at it’s full capacity. Got home in a timely manner and went to bed.

Saturday: Jake had a game in Riverside at Arlington High School. Got to see the Whitesell’s. Jake didn’t play because he was rehabbing his knee from the last game. They got beat needless to say. After we got back in Rialto I went to go pick up Hayley from Becca’s new house and ended up staying for a while and watching the Long Beach State vs. UCSB Big West Final. We lost which was upsetting because I really was looking forward to traveling with the team to the first round of the NCAA Tournament. Oh well. Got to see Ryan which was nice. Later I hit up Cynthia and stopped by to visit with her for a bit. It was good catching up with her. I had texted Natalia Sulistiyo earlier and asked her if she wanted me to stop by and visit her at UCR. She agreed and I texted Breann to let her know that I would be over there. She seemed excited that I was coming to visit, which made me happy. I met up with Natalia first and got to see her room and everything. Then I went to visit Breann and talked to her longer than expected, like always. After about an hour I went and spent some time with Natalia again and then went back to Breann’s dorm for the rest of the night.

It felt great to have her in my arms, just for that short time. I was filled with joy the entire time I was with her, but tried to keep it as undetected as possible. We fell asleep in each others arms a few times and had some fun messing around. I felt like I could try to kiss her and she would accept it, but I think we’ve both gotten to the point where something like that would be stepping down a path that neither of us are ready for. I feel like her and I should talk about it. There’s still time, but I feel like the more I wait, one day it will be too late. But, overall, it was great to see her. She is amazing and I hope she knows that I think that highly of her. I don’t think there is anyone on this earth that I respect more.

After all that, I went back home and crashed around what was now 6am because of daylight savings.

Sunday: Because of my adventures the night before my sleep was screwed up and I had to argue with my dad about going to church. I ended up trying to get rest but was continually woken by one thing or another. He was yelling at me to get the grass cut and that I wasn’t contributing to this family or paying him back for my education. It’s ALWAYS about money with him no matter what he says. Eventually, I got a solid hour of shut-eye and went down to go cut the grass in the back. Took care of it and even went over it twice like my dad had asked me to. Went inside and had my mom clean up the hair on my neck and then I made a couple burritos knowing I was going to be leaving with Terresa soon. He comes in the house and yells at me and make’s me promise to cut the grass in the front before I leave. I agree to it and he goes on yelling anyway. I pack up my things and make sure that I will be ready to leave once she shows up. My dad comes in and is sitting on the stairs and says in a low voice,”You’re gonna get out there and cut the grass right?”. OH MY GOD!!! I had already told him I would and this made me a bit upset. We argued for a few minutes and then I walked out the door yelling back at him. I walk over to the garage and around it to get my shoes from the back. When I walk back to the garage my dad is standing there and tells me he doesn’t deserve this crap from me and he takes the lawnmower over to the lawn as I try to tell him I was getting the shoes and was planning on taking care of the grass. He turns around and very directly tells me to “Eat Shit”. He tried to apologize to me about 30 minutes later, but I wouldn’t let him speak to me. He doesn’t deserve it.

Got back to Long Beach after that and tried my best to enjoy the rest of the day. Hopefully, I will get some sleep to help ease my mind and start off the week right.

I’ve written an email to my dad and will send it to him shortly. I hate doing this, but I don’t see myself communicating my emotions any other way. Goodnight World. Hope your last 24 hours was better than mine.